First

You probably heard this before - "Be careful what you wish for".. Well, The secure male here will have non of that.  I say, take responsibility for your life and  celebrate that which you wish for because you will get it.  But who knows, I might sing a different song months from now.
That is because this journal of discovery and exploration begins 9 days after Princess K took over the control of my orgasm and 3 days since she locked me in chastity.
I never knew that panic, dread, thrill and intoxication can coexist    
but this is the recipe that the butterflies in my stomach are made of. The effects are quite strong already. I am indeed frustrated and semi aroused big part of the time. I pine for my penis (see "panic, dread" ) but just as much, maybe more, pine for Princess K (see "thrill, intoxication").
Princess K got the key and from what I can tell so far she may be too well suited for the position I asked her to take. Previously in my long term relationships I was never being respectful to or honest about my needs. I have always been adventurous and open sexually and I used that for  pleasuring and fulfilling  the other person. Something that I do enjoy very much indeed.
Many times we are so afraid to ask for what we want because rejection or refusal is like a death sentence to our self-esteem. Since it is so hard for us to truly love ourselves why risk loosing the love of others too.
But Princess K came into my life when I was, finally, ready for her. Having grown to be more accepting and loving of myself I was less afraid to express myself. And I knew that I will not go through another relationship with out being completely honest about my need to explore my kinks. I was ready to wish for what I wanted and refused to be careful about it.
So here we are. . Since I put on the chastity belt (cb6000s) and gave away the key I have not for obvious reasons indulged in any masturbation or internet porn. I will use the energy and the extra  time to chronicle the experiences and the lessons that will come my way. ( you may thank Princess K if you like what you read here)
More to come,